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A year ago I had incredible intentions. I was going to be something. I was going to do something. I lined up conferences to attend. I enrolled in a new nutritional course. I was reading all the motivational, goal setting, dream accomplishing books. I posted the questions, the motivational quotes and inspirational messages all over my house. 

And then my daughter ran away. 

And she was gone for two months without contact. 

Then we found her and brought her home. 

But then we had to send her to live in Tennessee with my in-laws in hopes that we could break the ties she had with some seriously dysfunctional and potentially dangerous people. 

And we thought we had. 

But not really. Thankfully though she lived far away from them and the only contact they did have was limited. 

Then she joined the Army National Guard and left for bootcamp, without us being able to say goodbye because her choices were keeping us from her. 

The year would end really well though for her and us. She found herself again and rededicated herself to the Lord and to herself. 

She came home for a two week visit for Christmas and then graduated from the military January 23rd of this year. 

All my plans though for last year fell through. The conferences all got moved to this year or flat out canceled. I had to walk away from the nutritional course for a minute because I couldn't concentrate on that and worry about my daughter. 

I find myself coming full circle at pretty much the same time of year as last year. 

I am ready for this year though, more ready I think than even last year. 

I am ready because despite all the traumatic and dramatic moments I faced I still read the books. I kept up all the quotes and inspirational messages. I wrote down my goals. I wrote down my dreams. I stayed hopeful and ready.  

For about a month now I have been consistent in some of those goals. I enrolled again in my nutritional course which I start in March. I picked up a client. I am eating the way I know is best for my body. I am working out. I am focused, determined, and at peace. 

I don't know what this year holds completely but I do know I am ready. 

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